OH MY GOD! I just had the most amazing 3 days! On the 23rd me, Nardy, Sithmi n Amritha went to Unawatuna to stay for 3 nights (with Madam). We did want to check out hot guys but its wasnt like our holiday would have sucked without that either. On the first day we had plenty of fun on our own…in the pool, at the beach n finally after dinner in the jacuzzi :D. On the next day there was a special Christmas Eve dinner for everyone and we got all dressed up (we all looked sooo good xP) and went for dinner. When we got there, we saw lots of new people we hadn’t seen earlier including this hot blondie, more about him later, but first we served n sat down to eat, when we noticed this guy (eating with his grandma) who was hot in a disheveled, Jhonny Depp kinda way.

He had kinda long, gorgeous dark hair n a very sexy, mature look. We were all checking him out :P. We then headed to the dance floor but we noticed that Johnny (that was our code name for him) was kinda like dancing with another girl even though he did keep glancing our way so many times. We didn’t completely abandon hope but we didn’t really pay him tonnes of attention either. We were genuinely having fun on our own. At this point I still hadn’t gotten a good, long look at blondie’s face. Santa’s arrival was announced n we all rushed to the beach cause apparently he was arriving in a boat *rolls eyes*. We were struggling to walk in the sand with our heels on when me n Nardy noticed blondie in front of us. So she kinda accidentally on purpose tripped n swayed n pushed me onto him ๐Ÿ˜‰ (yesh we are cunning and flirty like that) Blondie was clearly very hawt. He was wearing a light blue shirt, he was really tall (like 6’2) and his body was so long n toned n just perfect ;).

We apologized very convincingly and he clearly didn’t mind one bit :P. After the big hoola about Santa, we went back to dancing n this time we were like the only people on the dance floor, but we didn’t really care. We saw blondie and his friend look over at us a couple of times n they kinda hovered close to the dance floor. They ate while we continued dancing (more people joined by this time) and then after awhile both of them headed towards the dance floor ๐Ÿ˜€ We were so hyped n with our body language we kinda made them confident enough to join our circle. And when they did join us, blondie came right next to me n we all danced together for awhile ๐Ÿ™‚ Then he kinda came closer, bent towards me (cause the music was so loud) n started talking. Just like that :D. He introduced himself n his friend so i introduced myself n my friends. He said he’s from Denmark but was studying engineering in England. He told me a few more things about him and his friend and asked us questions (all the while bending really close). We all danced for a really loong time while talking. At one point they left to get a drink n when they were leaving he told me and left xD. My heart was like on such a high. They came back and we danced some more and when they left for the 2nd time again he looked at me before going. Even Sithmi noticed that xP.

We were also kinda tired so we went and sat at the bar and ordered water..while we were sitting they came back n blondie sat next to me with his friend. We talked some more, he was really fun and funny and sweet and super hot :P. Then a strange thing happened, Johnny, who we thought had left with that girl, came back n sat on the other end of our group (which was next to nardy) n he started talking to her and sithmi. I mean I still thought Johnny was really hawt ( he was from Spain with such an adorable accent) but by now I was more into blondie because i had got to know him better and he was clearly interested. So I told Sithmi that she should totally go for it with Johnny :). Once when I was paying attention to Johnny, blondie kinda tapped my thigh to get my attention (my heart almost jumped to my throat). We talked quite a lot and again he sort of flicked my thigh in a cute way ๐Ÿ˜› We also took pics with them and he put his arm around me ๐Ÿ˜‰ While we were dancing earlier he invited me n the rest to come walk in the beach n go to this club called kingfisher and i said we’ll see. So he asked me about it again but we decided we cant exactly go to a club with them. Later at the bar he asked me to join them to play volleyball or water polo the next day and i said hell yeah! (not so enthusiastically of course- i kept my cool ๐Ÿ™‚ After that we had to say bye cuz the bar was closing, so we went back to our rooms to gush about the 2 hotties who picked us to check out just like we picked them :P. Such an exhilarating feeling that felt soo good. Not only cause they were interested but also cause they were such sweet guys and honestly fun to hang out with. Even though by physical appearance Johnny was definitely more my type I was more into blondie cause he was the one who talked to me first, the one i got to know first. It just shows I don’t just go for looks and I can resist guys with long hair. Blondie = gorgeous โค

Go Back in TIme

Posted: December 11, 2010 in Uncategorized
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When I first thought about advice i would have given myself if i could go back in time, there wasn’t much. I mean i’ve only lived sixteen years, just how many regrets could i possibly have right? But when i really thought about it in the bathroom today (i seem to be doing a lot of thinking there :D) i found quite a few changes i would have liked… Now what does that say about me and my life?

1. I would tell myself not to draw on all the walls just cuz they didnt take u to see ur brother in the hospital.

2. Don’t shake ur butt in front of the mirror, ur mom’s gonna catch u and it will be embarrassing.

3. Say NO to guy no. 2, 3 and 4., you know u dont really wanna date them.. Experience with guy no. 1 is important..kinda.

4. Guy no. almost 4 is a whole different story. Despite all the crap that comes with him its worth liking him…jus dont be pathetic about it. Remember u CAN do better u just chose not to.

5. DO NOT GO TO KFC IN UNIFORM! U WILL GET SUSPENDED.

6. DO NOT CUT LIT. CLASS. U WILL GET SUSPENDED YET AGAIN ๐Ÿ˜›

7. Don’t like Ramen/ Chicken/ Kukula (why are all his nicknames food related O_o) its just bad timing and bad luck on ur part..just dont.

For now these are the main ones i guess. Can’t really change them. Funny how i didnt tell myself to do stuff i didnt do back then. Maybe i’ll do that on the next list. Anyway, what doesnt kill me can only make me stronger.

Today was the worst day in a long time. First of all our matches were cancelled. Nardy called me to go watch the guys matches and I wanted to go, but deep down i knew it will be sucky.

My frustration is catching up to me now, the fact that he’s taken is starting to sink in. I never wanted to fall this far…

The worst part is everyone seems to be happy and i know this may sound childish but everywhere i look i see couples living their dreams. And im thrilled for them..i really am..but being single is taking its toll on me.

Like today at the match i had to keep telling myself to stop staring at him and it sucks that he doesnt even care. Can’t really blame him though…he IS taken…

Oh screw this! i have to let it go!! maybe im taking so long to find someone because he is just around the corner n straight out of my dreams (i wish -.-)

Too Damn Cute! >_<

Posted: October 13, 2010 in Ramblings
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To do or not to do..that’s what runs through my mind each time i see him.
Do i continue to like him and risk pain or do i give up now since it is the smart thing to do?

I mean obviously she suits him better..they’re the same age, she’s really sweet and they jus simply match.

Okay so i admit..trying to get over him is easier than trying to get over you-know-who..way easier but it still sucks >__<

In my head I scream in frustration when i see him and sometimes it escapes. I'm just like 'dammit! why cant he be older??
dammit! why cant he be less shy?
dammit! why does he have to be so cute??' aaand the list goes on..

Let's just hope this is a weird phase that i'm going through…for my sanity's sake lol ๐Ÿ˜›
Don't make my heart beat faster tomorrow..fingers crossed ๐Ÿ™‚

The title says it all ๐Ÿ™‚ There is no particular order or preference to these songs, all are beautiful in their own way…
So without further ado ๐Ÿ˜›

1. Tangled Up in You – Stained
2. Twilight – Dexter Freebish
3. Nothin’ On You – B.O.B
4. Meet Me on the Equinox – Death Cab for Cutie
5. One Time – Justin Bieber
6. If You’re Not the One – Daniel Bedingfield
7. Just The Way You Are – Bruno Mars
8. Undisclosed Desires – Muse
9. Vanilla Twilight – Owl City
10. Vermillion Part 1 & 2 – Slipknot (might seem like a weird choice but i love the sadness n frustration n obsession in both songs)
11. Lay Me Down – Dirty Heads (<3333 love the lyrics)

This list is gonna grow as I keep adding new songs to it..I dont know about u but I would love it if a guy dedicated either one of these songs to me โค He'll score so many points for that xP

BLAHHH…..

Posted: September 3, 2010 in Ramblings

These days im in such a blah moodโ€ฆ I have no interest in school work or clubs and as a result my grades have suffered because I didnโ€™t study. I have no motivation, no inspiration, like my fire has burned outโ€ฆ worst part is I donโ€™t even care about my grades, im indifferent, like it hasnโ€™t sunk in yet. I need to feel alive. In a good, healthy way. I need change, inspiration, enthusiasm and a good incentive. A reason to go to school, to continue with life. I keep asking myself โ€œ What is the point of all this?โ€ when I feel like im out of place. Like even my thoughts donโ€™t count because time changes and sometimes erases them. I should probably just live for the moment.Give me a sign, make me feel alive again…

WHAT HAVE I BECOME??:O

Posted: August 10, 2010 in Ramblings

oh my gawd..looking at all (well not all, just most of them)my past blogs i just realized how idiotic i sound..I mean seriously! when did i turn into a lovesick poet??! ewwww…im wayy too young to be a poet, i mean all poets are old and/or dead -_- (no offence to Keats ๐Ÿ™‚ i kinda liked him and his depressing odes when we learned them in 10th grade)

Anyhoos, im going a bit crazy right now xD how is that possible?? i just drank strawberry flavored milk o_O weird.. anyway as i was saying im soo not a poet or anything sophisticated like that… i hope from now on i wont have these strange urges to write poetry, i much prefer just writing about things in my life without worrying about rhyming the words and whatnot.

Im reading this manga called Ayashi No Ceres right now…its turning out to be pretty interesting ๐Ÿ™‚ woohoo this hot guy just kissed the main girl (Aya) *_* now this is why i love manga ๐Ÿ˜› its so much better than real life…

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Posted: July 22, 2010 in Movies
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I just saw the trailer of ‘Avatar : The Last Airbender’ and I have to say it looks awesome!! I can’t wait until it comes to theaters in Sri Lanka so all of us can go and enjoy the movie. Avatar is like one of my favourite cartoons of all time, in fact it’s only second to Naruto (which I absolutely love btw) . Since this is only the first movie based on the first season (Book 1 -Water) I hope it doesn’t disappoint fans and discourage them from watching the sequels.

Talking about the official cast I think Nicola Peltz as Katara is very cute. Jackson Rathbone as Sokka is the best decision everrr, he suits the character perfectly and I’m sure he’ll do a great job! Noah Ringer looks just like Aang but since it is his first movie I don’t know how he’ll handle his character (fingers crossed xD). Seychelle Gabriel as Yue is absolutely gorgeous!! โค (she should think about permanently colouring her hair silver =P) Also I’m dying to see the special effects they have planned for us (no doubt there will be tonnes), how is Appa going to be made?? (the most adorable thing in the history of the world!! <3)ย  and Momo? Too bad Toph won’t be in the first movie (i like her too). Moving on…

My favourite character from the whole Avatar series is Zuko. He is amazing! (not to mention hawwt =P) He is hot but still totally cool if you know what I mean ๐Ÿ˜‰ I mean his element is fire so he is very fiery, passionate, determined, hot tempered and impatient (which usually gets him in trouble xD) but he is also very intelligent and skilled in the art of fighting, infiltration and spying. Later in the series he becomes calmer and more stable.ย  Also he’s the only guy who can look that much hotter with a scar right across his face =D.

So seeing how much I love Zuko you can imagine my shock, outrage and downright disappointment when I found out that Dev Patel will be playing Zuko!! I mean seriously, what was Shymalan thinking???? No offence to Dev Patel ( he was awesome in Slumdog Millionaire) but he is the last person who should be playing Zuko.

He looks nothing like the anime Zuko and I really don’t think he can portray Zuko’s anger, insecurity and complexity of thought. Zuko is supposed to be a mystery, an enigma, not an easy to read, happy-go-lucky guy. He just cannot be Zuko, who represent fire, the constantly flickering flame which can in the blink of an eye change from a source of warmth and comfort to a devouring beast.

Honestly, if Jackson Rathbone wasn’t perfect for Sokka I would have suggested Dev Patel for the part because he seems more like the Sokka type. This is a contrast in character that simply cannot be ignored. I mean Sokka is nothing like Zuko (despite the names sounding alike :D). So far this is the only heartbreaking shortcoming of this cartoon turned movie. I can’t express just how saddening it is to see my favourite character being portrayed by someone who is plain WRONG for the part. Sighhhh… after all that waiting and hoping and anticipating it was a rude shock.

Ahhh i really needed to rant about Zuko =) now that it’s off my chest I feel a teensy weensy bit better. In the end I will never see Dev Patel as Zuko material but my opinion of Zuko will not change either. Zuko FTW!! โค hahaha =P I think Zuko fans all over the world are reacting in a similar way but anyway good luck to all the actors (specially Mr. Patel, he’s gonna need it) and I hope they contribute to making this epic story a hit among fans of Avatar (young and old).

Prince Zuko :ย  “I used to think this scar marked me. The mark of the banished prince, cursed to chase the Avatar forever. But lately, I’ve realized I’m free to determine my own destiny, even if I’ll never be free of my mark.”

โค

Random Feelings

Posted: July 20, 2010 in Uncategorized

I’ve moved on despite what they think… my heart doesn’t beat as fast as it used to when I see him. I think he senses that too, that I’m different around him now. I don’t know if he’s relieved or if his ego is a bit hurt.

Even now it’s not like I’m completely immune to him, as I’m sure my friends can tell. There are the occasional heart-in-mouth moments.

I wish I had this blog 3 years ago..when I liked him. It would have been full of him, I guess it anyway is kinda full of him. But it definitely would have been different: more odes to him than odes to the hurt from him.

Anyway bottom line is I’m free.

This Is You

Posted: May 27, 2010 in Ramblings
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Purple nails,
Clutching the rails.
Peach lip gloss,
Mourning her loss.
Stiletto heels,
She wants to feel,
Feel like she’s wanted,
Not like she’s haunted.
A smile plastered on her face,
She moves with enviableย  grace,
Yet he looks away,
Maybe he’s gay?
But she is full of doubts,
“Aren’t I good enough?” she shouts.
This is what’s in her head,
Her self confidence is dead.
She just feels so alone,
Trapped in a world of her own,
She wants to break free,
Blinded by fear she can’t see.
One day she’ll know she’s worth more,
That’s when her beautiful soul will soar.